Saturday, December 3, 2011

My Story, My Purpose

I have loved horses for as long as I can remember. Most little girls played with their Barbies, but I played with their horse counterparts. I didn't want Barbie houses or clothes, instead I wanted toy barns and saddles. Whenever I was outside, I wasn't a human,  I would transform myself into a horse and gallop around my yard all day long setting up jumps and creating make believe scenarios of being a champion racing horse. In my five year old imaginary worlds horses became the stars which goes to show that even from an early age I realized that in a created world, horses are not props. Instead, they are actors who also function to portray an important role.

As I grew up my passion for horses exploded. Everything in my life had to do with horses. My dad bought my mom a two year old colt when I was about six or seven years old. He was green broke, but that didn't phase me. When my parents would walk Sonny out in the yard and let him graze I would run out and just sit on his back enjoying the connection I could have with this powerful animal. When I was eight I got my first pony for Easter, but my equestrian life changed when I was eleven years old. That was when I got my first horse. Her barn name was Sparkie and she looked ragged and overweight when I first got her, but there was something special about this mare. When I looked into her soft brown eyes I witnessed a comfort and beauty my little eleven year old self had never experienced before. Little did I know that the day Sparkie entered my life would be the beginning of a great journey.

I don't care how cliché this sounds, but Sparkie changed my life and made me the person I am today. I grew up on this mare. We had many moments of tough love where we would butt heads and personalities, but all in all that helped us grow closer as a team. The sweat, tears, and love this mare and I poured into each other cannot be met by anything else in my life. We started out as underdogs, but by the end of our career together we had various national rankings in the International Buckskin Horse Association alongside a Reserve World Champion title. We spent every summer day together, and went to shows almost every weekend. It was during these summers that I began to realize my summer world of horses was comparable to my winter world of acting.

These worlds became interchangeable and I supplemented skills I learned on the stage in the ring and vice versa. However, when it was time for me to leave I had to chose one world because I didn't think I could have both. I chose theatre, thinking I was ready to leave my equestrian life in the past. Three years have passed since I sold Sparkie, and I now realize that being bit by the horse bug is just as bad as being bit by the acting bug. It is something you live for and when it is gone there is a gaping hole in your heart. Giving up Sparkie was like giving up a child, but like every parent I had to give up what I loved most in this world to show her how much I truly cared. I don't think it is acceptable for me to forget my past in the equestrian world, and instead I want to utilize it to shape me as an artist and an individual. This project is my attempt to accomplish this goal. Rightly so, this project is inspired and dedicated to my little brown mare, Sparkie.

"If you got a taste of what I am talking about you cant get enough of it. You can’t even eat. You may spend your whole life chasing it and that is okay because it is a good thing to chase."-Horseman Buck Brannanan

Sparkie and I getting ready to go for a quick ride at home

1 comment:

  1. Great comments and perspective Faith! Theatre is all about relationships; between the writer and the director; the actor and the audience, the music and the dancer, it's all intertwined. The lessons you learned on the back of your beloved Sparkie will serve you well in every aspect of your life. To be able to relate to the outside world, from an inside perspective is a gift, a gift that has been discovered and nurtured by way of a partnership with a creature that taught you to see and communicate in a different way! Enjoy the ride!